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Jonathan uses his life experience as an example of hope, and promise of overcoming what many have and many more would call unconquerable disadvantages. As a result Jonathan is not only powerful but moving and memorable. As a same-gender loving man, his story is nothing less than phenomenal. read more

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Saturday
10Feb2007

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Damn. I won't say that I know what you're going through, but I do know hurt. There are times when I feel alone, unwanted, out of place and unloved. There are times when "it" hurts so much I wonder if life is even worth it. Do know though that I got love for you, man. Sure we're only strangers in the vastness that is cyberspace, but I open up my heart and offer a listening ear. Feel free to call me if you ever want to talk, about anything--3143220307.
02.11.2007 | Unregistered CommenterK. Deondré
My brotha, I have just witness your day of feeling nothingness. What I want you to do is get "the secret."
This is The Secret to everything - the secret to unlimited joy, health, money, relationships, love, youth: everything you have ever wanted. thesecret.tv/
You days of feeling nothingness will never be again!
Love,
Cleon
02.11.2007 | Unregistered CommenterCleon
WOW....I was not expecting that when I came to visit. You allow yourself to be so transparent, which is rare these days. I think you said it best..it's one of those days. However, we must always remember that we have the power to choose. Tomorrow, choose to be happy, choose to enjoy life....I know, it's easier said than done, but you must choose.

God is listening...believe that! Don't let this particular circumstance change your view on how you see God and how he sees you. Don't let fear or aggrevation replace faith.

We all have these moments and you aren't alone. I had a post like this a year ago when I blogged on a different page. Be encourage...remember to choose.
02.12.2007 | Unregistered Commenterlife
Hi Jonathan,

Don't believe the lie. Feelings, emotions, even the senses deceive. The fact is, you are not your emotions, your thoughts, your ups and downs. That's why our moods change so much from day to day, hour to hour, minute to minute. Come to know that which is always the same, always present. Watch the craziness of mind and heart - like a scientist, study it. Watch those movements of heart and mind play out. Remember you are more than the changing fancy of emotions. You are. With practice you can learn to detach from the distractions and live and be happy in what is real. Not pushing religion or an agenda. All great teachings lead to that same truth of what's real and what's not. Unfortunately in our age of being bombarded with movement, noise, and distraction, we miss what is right in front of us. I will say this for your video expression, it suggests you're right where you need to be. It's not until we can see there's something wrong, that we know to seek another way. I have no doubt you will find the answers you seek. You are destined for greatness my brother! Thank you for sharing your process.

Humbly yours,
Wayne
02.12.2007 | Unregistered CommenterWayne
You know, the truth is, sometimes life sucks. When we're living life we experience lifes ups and downs, it's good times and bad times. They come and they go. We all experience periods of joy as well as periods of pain. Use your hurts to grow. Your hurts are lifting you to a higher level of understanding. Your tears are cleaning your vision so you can now see clearly. Pray that whatever you are to learn from this experience you will learn. Now, look foward to a brand new day tomorrow.
02.13.2007 | Unregistered Commenterwhozhe
"Be strong in Lord, and in the power of His Might"
02.13.2007 | Unregistered Commenterzunc
Wow i am speechless once again i have known you for a few years now and you know i am always say you our an inspiration to so many people that u dont even know. Jonathan i commend you for you outspokeness. Continue to lift your head, SMILE, the sun will shine on you everyday, you may be down and out and not wanting to life but u gotta find that power from way deep within and have him to hold you tight.
02.13.2007 | Unregistered CommenterAndre Allen
Jonathan, I want to thank you for posting this. I know its very tough to put your emotions out there like that. I'm not sure if you remember me, but we met a couple of weeks back when you were here in Houston to give a speech. Trust me when I say that I have been in your shoes more then I care to remember. One of the things that your post reminded me of is how I have felt since I came out. Many times I have felt unwelcomed in the gay community for many reasons, and it made me feel very alone given the fact that my family and several of my friends turned away from me because of my sexuality,and then to come into a community and feel further turned away is a very difficult situation. But I can say this, everything that happens to us is meant for some purpose. It may not be revealed to us until later on in life, but I truly believe that God does has a purpose for the events that do occur to us. I will pray for you, and hope that things do get better for you.
02.13.2007 | Unregistered CommenterBrandon
Weeping may endure for a night, but JOY is coming in the morning. Right now it sounds like you are having a bad "night"....but if you just hang on, hold on, and pray on....before you know it....it will be morning. God never promised us HAPPINESS, but He did promise us JOY. Happiness is temporary, but JOY is everlasting. You are loved and you are in my prayers. Thank you for opening up and sharing. You have just rallied the troops on your behalf.
(((((HUG))))
02.13.2007 | Unregistered CommenterALLEGRO
thanks
02.15.2007 | Unregistered Commenterblkgld3
Thanks Jon for being You

You appear to be like that lone soldier, stationed far from home, with no one to turn to for the support that had led him all his life while growing up.
When I first saw you I told you that I knew you from somewhere. The more I watched you the more I realized that I did not know you, well not from this life. Wow, this is unreal; someone tells me often that everything happens for a reason. My meeting you was not for the obvious but for another purpose. In times like these we all ask the question, "Why me?" Pastor Caesar said it best, she said, "that when God ask a question, he already knows the answer.” He asked Adam; Adam where art thou? He asked Moses; Moses what is that that you have in your hands? He asked Ezekiel, “Can these bones live? He asked the crowd; “who touched me? He asked Abraham; “Is there anything too hard for God? St Matthew 6;6 (You have to read what it says) You are about to receive your reward
Joel Osteen wrote that no matter how successful we are, we all face challenges, struggles, and times when things don’t go our way. When calamities occur, some people immediately think they have done something wrong, that God must surely be punishing them. They don’t understand that God has a divine purpose for every challenge that comes into our life. He doesn’t send the problems, but sometimes, He allows us to go through them. The bible says temptations, trials, and difficulties must come, because if we are to strengthen our spiritual muscles and grow stronger, we must have adversities to overcome and attacks to resist. Moreover, it’s in the tough times of life that we find out what we’re really made of. The pressure exposes things we need to deal with-things such as wrong attitudes, wrong motives, areas where we’re compromising. As odd as this may seem, the trials can be beneficial.
02.15.2007 | Unregistered Commenterblkgld3
Say it aint so. I get up late at night/early mornings just to have a private conversation wit JP (Johnathan Perry for those who don't know him. Something told me to stay home from work the other day cos I felt JP needed a shoulder. JP, my brohta, you have a shoulder and as I read all of the comments "you aint alone". Cry a little laugh a little and let life, yes, let life. I will be right back here for you tomorrow, know that.
02.17.2007 | Unregistered CommenterBlksilk

Be encouraged JP

1 Samuel 30:6

"And David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and for his daughters: but DAVID ENCOURAGED HIMSELF IN THE LORD HIS GOD."

The soapbox: David knewe the pain of great loss and to have others suffer with him! Here in this passage we see David’s inner strength His relationship with God gave him knowledge of what to do when circumstances become uncontrollable and stress ridden! He knew how to use the word of God to encourage himself in the Lord! He understood that the promises of God were greater than his present situation, and that God would work out that which needed to be resolved for his honor and glory, and that he mustn’t let the circumstances change him for the worst, but change his perception of the circumstances for the better! He trusted in God!! When the hot waters of life fill our cup, lets make the tea of encouragement for others to drink! Pastor Greg

10.2.2007 | Unregistered CommenterUNCLE

Wow! You said it, "outside"! Well, you sure did not place "us"(viewer) outside your thoughts of agony and pain. J.P., this is why I respect you and pray for you so much. You are honest and transparent. That is rare these days. KEEP LIVING! This life would not be the same without you. Hang in there and thanks so very much. I mean it. lol

11.18.2007 | Unregistered CommenterKirk Johnson

Hey,

I have been aware of you for a couple of months now. I'm a 26-year-old black gay man in NYC who is also in the fight against HIV/AIDS.

What I would like to say is, well done. You are not alone. There are many people and angels who have their eyes on you. So, when you are sad, feel it. We are here, and we send our love constantly. We also know that it is important for you to feel the good and the bad, for it is truly all the same. The bad feelings are just your way of growing, becoming stronger. And according to your artcile, "Who Loves You?", you actually grew from this experience. So, well done!

Love.

01.6.2008 | Unregistered CommenterRobert D.

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