Hello all my name is C.J. and i am a 20 year old African American and i am struggling with HIV and it was crazy how i got it and how i look at it now,Come take a journey with me through my life story of getting and living with HIV.
*sorry for grammar and run-ons and punctuation problems"
It was a nice day in Feburary when i meet my friend Named Bee(fake name)and was became really good friends over the course of this month and we spent time together and shared secret thoughts and also deep fears but what we never talked about came to stay with me, I would go over Bee's house all the time to get away from my mother and family that had a problem with me because I knew Bee would be there to make it all better not knowing later his medicine would be my life cycle.One night in March i shared with Bee that i like him and he told me "C.J. we can only be friends"so then I was mad so i decided in my head that was final we are only friends,that next night I was sitting in the living room watching T.V when Bee says i am going to take a nap within the next % minutes i heard Bee calling for me so i went in the room and layed in the bed with him and we was talking as bestfriends would do, next thing i know i am on the ground and the lights go out and Bee is hitting me and i am screaming trying to get away next i feel him trying to get my pants of BLANK BLANK BLANK next thing i know i wake up in Bee's bed like nothing just happend wondering why the room is so messed up and my jaw hurts i tell be please take me home so he did.I never told anybody what i know Bee did to me that is he raped me until the beggining of april when wmy cousin asked me to go get tested with him i said "ok"because i just knew i didnt have anything i got tested the lady asked me to go to a back room and she says"C.J. you might have HIV" i got scaried so i didnt go back until may being scaried my mother was with me that is when i found out Bee not only raped me but gave me a package Labeled HIV and now i take medicine that i will have to take forever and i went through depression but i found out that this is not a death sentence this is not the end of life it is actually the begging of life for me and it could be for you or somebody you know if you look at it from life stand point and not your thinking stand point.This is why i speak to the Mind to Encourage The Heart To Make A change.If you want to contact me to talk or come speak at a event please e-mail me at great_things89@yahoo.com